Sometimes you have to be a Mom when all you really want is your own Mom. Yesterday I had to have a tooth pulled, for some odd inexplicable reason it got infected all the way up to my sinuses even though it had a root canal and a crown put on it over 7 years ago. But yesterday I had to have it extracted and it wasn't pretty. I had about 9 shots, condensed into 4 or 5 and I still wasn't completely numb. I was white knuckled the whole time. At one point I was was crying and the dental hygienist had to wipe my tears. My poor dentist felt horrible. I was a mess. But it is over now, the good news is that the infection didn't spread to my heart valve which could have required another open heart surgery, so overall I consider it a huge success, I dodged a bullet, I consider myself lucky.
The funny thing about it all was that when I got home, rather than sit and rest on the couch, take some pain killers and let my wonderful Mom make me chocolate pudding I had to be a Mom and a good one too since my husband wasn't home. I had to get 3 kids dinner, get one kid ready for a baseball game, watch one kid outside to make sure he didn't get kidnapped, and of course change diapers, not to mention pick up some things at the grocery store on the way home from my dentist appointment while I was still bleeding profusely and had huge amounts of gauze in my mouth. I had to get things for the kids lunches and milk so I could make my own pudding after the kids went to sleep.
Overall I love being a Mom, it makes me see that I am stronger than I ever thought I was and I have more LOVE than I knew possible. But one other thing that I really like is how much it surprises me. I am astonished at what my Mom did for me and my brothers and sisters when we were kids, how the heck did she do it?? And how did she do it without yelling that much? I am amazed at what my Mom and Dad continue to do for me today, don't these people ever get to retire? I am amazed at the Moms my sisters have become, seriously, they are making me look bad.
And I am also continually amazed at the kindness of the other Moms around me, it's like they know how hard it is, so they try really really hard to help me. Another Mom came over and took my kid to his game so I wouldn't have to and so he wouldn't miss it. How nice is that?
But while I do appreciate the opportunity to see all the beauty and love around me, I have to admit, every once in a while I just need my Mom.